I must admit that I haven’t even started on my birthday weekend post. I keep thinking of what I should write and then I get distracted.
The fact is this week has been really depressing for me. I turned 24 years old on Sunday, and although I was surrounded by family, I really feel like I was missing something. It did really hurt me that only a few friends even bothered acknowledging my birthday. I guess I know who my true friends are. :(
Normally this wouldn’t have bothered me except that I tried really hard this past year to keep up with friend’s birthdays… and several of them didn’t even say hello on mine. I’m not good at being a friend, I know this sometimes. I hate talking on the phone, it’s so impersonal. I’d rather see you in person or shoot a quick email. As much as I want to blame myself, I know that friendship is supposed to be a two way street.
Anyway, this week the weather has been rainy and I believe that has affected my mood as well. I’m tired of being stuck in ruts, I want to be free of them! I know that sometimes I hold myself in those ruts, but I think acknowledging them is a good first step.
Looking back on this week, I realize that I’ve been trying to handle a lot on my own. I tend to get whiny and complain when I need to be rejoicing with what I do have. I may not be able to maintain every friendship that I want to, but the least I can do is to put forth effort into those that appreciate me back. I’ve gone through a lot of changes in the past two years and I’m a different person. I need to realize this and stop trying to keep things the way they used to be.
It’s been a rough summer on Gray. He spent a lot of time looking for a job and never found one. Thankfully, God provided for us throughout the summer and we’re fine financially. I truly believe that God knew Gray needed a break and provided for one. I can’t believe the summer is almost over, although I have a whole month left before starting back to school. I have a week left at work before I get three weeks off. I imagine I will watch a lot of 24 in those weeks.
As much as I whine and complain, I do know I am blessed. Sometimes I just need a helpful reminder.
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